I have been getting up early these last couple of days and my thought have gone to my mom. It is hard to believe it has been 6 years. To steal the phrase from my sister, a lot has happened in 6 years. I met the man of my dreams, we went through some tough years trying to have our two little boys, and we then moved across the country to a place I had never seen. Then of course we have had the little surprise with this third little boy on the way (I still think I don't fully comprehend that we are having another one.)That is not counting what all has gone on in my mom's family's life. I have decided that if I could have just a couple of minutes with her I would have to ask her so many things:
How is your new body (or whatever form she has in heaven) since the old one failed you?
Spiritually, what advice do you have for me?
What advice do you have for me as a wife?
What advice do you have for me as a mom?
You left such a legacy, how do I come close to doing that?
The thing is I am pretty sure mom would send me to the Word. She went there for everything. So, I guess I know how she would answer each of those, but I would just love to hear her voice. She was a "truth teller' whether you were ready for it or not she would tell it like it is. I miss that so much about her (most of the time). I don't know how but some how she always managed to do that in love.
Also, like Darce said I know I had to go through her loss to make me the woman that I am. I know that I would not have found my husband if she would not have gotten sick because I would not have been in Johnson City when I met him. I actually have an interview set up with the department of defense dependent schools and a job offer in Mexico when the we discovered the first round of chemo did not work. Who knows where I would have ended up or who I would have ended up with. I can not imagine my life without my husband or my boys, but I know they would not be with me if I had not lost my mom. These are just some of the big things that I know I had to experience, which was all a part of God's plan for me.
I also know and cherish that I will some day see her again. I know where she is and I know where I am going and we will be reunited not only as mother and daughter but as sisters in Christ. I have to say that is what makes the ache of missing her bearable. I know that is the promise we have as believers, it is not goodbye forever it is just see you after a while.
I could go on and on about how much I miss her and how wonderful she is, but I just needed to write some thoughts in order to not only share the legacy she has left but encourage you if you don't know Jesus then you don't know where you are going after you are gone. I know that was why my Mom had so much peace. If you want to experience this peace or want to know what in the world I am talking about please ask me or ask someone, because now is the time.
I don't have any pictures of mom that I can load so you will have to take a glance at Darce's blog to see the peace on my mom's face even though she was in a world of hurt when the picture was taken. http://darcyholsopple.blogspot.com/
I do have a picture that would make Mom smile:
Talk about a mug shot! They are getting so big! I think she would also say, they need haircuts!We have been studying Revelation at church and small group and I have realized how important it is for my friends and family and for that matter everyone to know Christ because you don't want to have to endure what is going to go on here on earth in the end times and I want to keep everyone I know from having to endure those times just because I didn't take the time to say it for whatever reasons. (Excuse the run-on sentence because IT IS that important!)
Thank you for helping me heal and mourn the loss of mom and thank you for caring enough about us to read some of my thoughts and hopefully comment. Most importantly though if you don't know Jesus now is the time because we never know about tomorrow unless we know about Him. So, I started with questions to ask mom. I have a couple of questions to ask you:
Do you know where you are going when you leave this world?
Have you accepted Jesus as your Savior?
What are you waiting for?
9 comments:
Lovely post Denise! I hope you are feeling good and enjoying your time with your boys.
Your writing about your mom was beautiful!
Both you and Darcy brought tears to my eyes today. . . thanks for your posts. . . I know you must miss your mom so so much. I didn't know her well but remember being around her a few times and she was a lovely lady.
Thoughts and prayers are with you all. Know your mom is rejoicing in Heaven and is so proud of all 3 of you guys.
Great post Denise. I know how hard it is to lose a loved one that is so close to you. It's nice you can write about her and remember the good things she has given you.
And the boys...well, they are just beyond adorable!!! I really miss that age with my kids.
I've been thinking about these Legacy thoughts a lot lately, too...I always come back to the fact that we were Created for the Eternal. Really. My Granny would've been 100 next Monday, though she only made it to 95. But we are having a party anyway with all the Hershey Bars and bingo she would've wanted - because I want the boys to feel like they knew her and to keep her legacy alive. Peace to you.
Denise you brought tears to my eyes. Your mom was such an amazing, Godly woman!
On a personal level, I thank you for the reminder that this world is not our home and the importance of standing out and sharing Christ with those around us.
It's easy to get caught up in the day to day, and so important not to.
oh denise...thanks for sharing that with us. you are beautiful woman and that so completely touched my heart. Your mom would be so proud to see the amazing mom you've become.
I wish I could give you a hug... I know that day must have been one of the tough ones.
Well said.
Please never guess if you are leaving a legacy.. you are and I love you so much. =)
What an incredible blog!!! I spent some time with your mom and she was so loving and such an incredible woman- so wonderful to all of your friends. You can tell how wonderful she was- because of the love and strength of your family... you, Darcy and Greg and such incredible people as well- and that comes from being raised in a strong, Christian home!!!! Love you!
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